Not everyone breathing is alive

Wednesday, April 30, 2008


It started from long time, and i did not notice. With time and things happen, it grows. Afterwards, I noticed it. I kept it away from all outside for not cause any hurt. I said with time it will collapse, but the fact is, I was collapsed.

It grows more and more, giving more heat and more pressure. The pressure from outside was growing too helping it to grow inside. Then it reached a point that I can not stop.

That moment I figured out I had to choose, to make it destroy me or hurt all people. I choosed myself and I collapsed.

Soon afterwards, I feel it is still inside but this time, I am stronger, much stronger.

I can now control it and make only parts I need to go out to be released. I can now keep it inside without destorying me again.

I think with time, I will be more strong , strong enough to kill it inside forever.

Everything we do is our choice, just we do not use this power of choice or we do not know we have it. Sometimes we have fear, just fear from nothing, fear from talk or fear from respond. Brave people have fears too but they always do things that they fear. That is why they are brave.

Tears are not weakness, wakeness is disability to control, to let yourself do anything regardless to the results. Being strong not means being heartless.

Saturday, February 09, 2008

Your dark room

Being misrable sometimes is your choice not something you are forced to have. It is just triggered by external environment. Then, it is your role. You enter you dark room bringing with you all sad memories, list to sad music, remember all bad events, see everything is black and how you can see colors in a dark room.
After sometime, it will be like an energy surrounds you. Brings all bad feelings to you and all people arround you. It is true that feelings as diseases, they can spread.
Inside the room, everything you see or say will be bad. It is a environment now not just something happened. Everything you feel as well. You will see only dark part because no light is there. You will hear every word as insult even it is sweet. You will feel hate in every feeling even it is love. You will see every seen is a fire even it is a pretty garden.
Dispiration is next and very closed to this. That when you lose hope that any thing will change and that will be true as long as you are inside that room, nothing will change. Room can not change because it is the room of darkness. To change that, you have to leave the room. You have to open the light or generally, you have to do something. Nothing changes with itself, you have to do something to change what is arround you. And even you do something and nothing changed, do not repeat same technique to get same result, do something diffreent. That is only if you want to getinto light.
"إن الله لا يغير ما بقوم حتى يغيروا ما بأنفسهم"

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Love is ??

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."

That is only true love.

Thursday, November 01, 2007

Chakra test

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This chakra is located at the crown of your head and represents the seat of the soul. The seventh chakra is associated with your connection to your spiritual self and to the divine. When this chakra is clear, positive energy can flow from it freely. Radiating positive energy from your seventh chakra indicates that you've cultivated higher wisdom concerning the important life lessons associated with this energy center. You're apt to feel a greater bond with the spiritual world. You're probably also more able to live in the moment than most other people are. The seventh chakra is the chakra of highest spiritual evolution.

Sunday, August 05, 2007

House on Sand

Children cry when they build their first house on sand and collapse not because it collapsed, becuase no body told them it will collapse while they know.

They ask, why they did not tell. If they did, I might not make it this pretty, I might not make it this perfect or I may be not make it from first place.

Do not build your house on sand, build on solid ground or do not build at all.

Do not raise your dreams to sky while you do not have wings.

Monday, July 02, 2007

Murphy's Law

"Whatever can go wrong will go wrong, and at the worst possible time"

for more details about the law seven phrases and the law theory, see's_law

Thursday, May 24, 2007

New member !!

It was 10.00 PM. Everybody is praying. I was hardly breathing, very scraed, tired and waiting.

The nurse came out and say, congratulations, you had a pretty girl.

I was full of feelings, i felt worry, happy, confused and many other feelings that can not be explained.

Then afterwards, day by day, i am going to stabilize but I am really asking myself a question i never did.

When I got married, I get my wife from her father, his baby. what I will feel after some years when someone will take my pretty baby girl.

I duunno.

anyway, I will do all best I have to make this angel the happiest person.

New member, and afterwards will be missed member.